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I’ve Got A Secret

I’ve been a bit quiet about this, but today I will share my secret.  I am unemployed.  It happened on Friday the 13th, just over two weeks ago.  I kept quiet about it because I was in the process of interviewing for two jobs and well, technically, my severance package wasn’t up until about an hour and a half ago.  I just got word back from the second and my anticipated dream job, that it’s a no-go.  They went with another candidate.  Boo.  Oh well, pout-fest is over.  It wasn’t meant to be and I’m moving on.

These past two+ weeks have actually been really nice, minus a few minor “I’m unemployed breakdowns”.  I was miserable at my old job.  I had been miserable for three years there.  It wasn’t necessarily the company, it was more that I wasn’t doing what I really wanted to be doing.  I had been looking into leaving for a while but the recession hit and the job market dried up so I felt stuck there since they hadn’t laid me off.  At the time of the recession, my job as an urban planner totally changed.  I was no longer their urban planner.  I became the marketing girl.  I got very resentful and that’s when I became miserable.  What kept me my job; doing all the marketing; was what made me want to leave every day I was there.  I played the marketing girl for over two years and I stopped growing professionally in terms of an urban planner.  They finally hired a marketing girl this past fall so once I tried her, I was off the hook for the marketing and I could move back to urban planning.  Except there really wasn’t any urban planning to do.  Bored , not stimulated, and totally under-challenged as an urban planner, they saw how miserable I was and they let me go.  Granted, it would have been nice to have a job already lined up, but in retrospect, I should have quit a long, long time ago.  On the upside of being let go, I got to enjoy a 2+ week paid vacation!

So for the past two weeks, I’ve been taking care of a lot of things that hadn’t had time to do otherwise.  I also went up to Cleveland for the dream job interview, which was fun in itself!  I’ve come to appreciate the fact that I don’t have to iron a single piece of clothing now.  I can structure the day the way  I want to.  It’s totally fine and acceptable to go to the gym at 3PM and start prepping dinner at noon.  Jackson and I have had lots of bonding time.  My portfolio is finally finished and I love the final product.  I finally have time to help Nick with his iPhone game graphics.  And I can focus on finding another job that is a much better fit for me.

While it’s stressful knowing that I won’t be contributing financially to our relationship come the next payday, Nick and I will get through this.  Honestly, if I didn’t have Nick by my side, cheering my on and reassuring me that it’s really for the better that I’m no longer employed there, I would not be doing so great right now.  (So thank you babe, for being such a huge support!)  Things will work themselves out.  They always do.  As for right now, while very scary, I’m trying to embrace the excitement of not knowing what will come next!