I’ve Got A Secret

I’ve been a bit quiet about this, but today I will share my secret.  I am unemployed.  It happened on Friday the 13th, just over two weeks ago.  I kept quiet about it because I was in the process of interviewing for two jobs and well, technically, my severance package wasn’t up until about an hour and a half ago.  I just got word back from the second and my anticipated dream job, that it’s a no-go.  They went with another candidate.  Boo.  Oh well, pout-fest is over.  It wasn’t meant to be and I’m moving on.

These past two+ weeks have actually been really nice, minus a few minor “I’m unemployed breakdowns”.  I was miserable at my old job.  I had been miserable for three years there.  It wasn’t necessarily the company, it was more that I wasn’t doing what I really wanted to be doing.  I had been looking into leaving for a while but the recession hit and the job market dried up so I felt stuck there since they hadn’t laid me off.  At the time of the recession, my job as an urban planner totally changed.  I was no longer their urban planner.  I became the marketing girl.  I got very resentful and that’s when I became miserable.  What kept me my job; doing all the marketing; was what made me want to leave every day I was there.  I played the marketing girl for over two years and I stopped growing professionally in terms of an urban planner.  They finally hired a marketing girl this past fall so once I tried her, I was off the hook for the marketing and I could move back to urban planning.  Except there really wasn’t any urban planning to do.  Bored , not stimulated, and totally under-challenged as an urban planner, they saw how miserable I was and they let me go.  Granted, it would have been nice to have a job already lined up, but in retrospect, I should have quit a long, long time ago.  On the upside of being let go, I got to enjoy a 2+ week paid vacation!

So for the past two weeks, I’ve been taking care of a lot of things that hadn’t had time to do otherwise.  I also went up to Cleveland for the dream job interview, which was fun in itself!  I’ve come to appreciate the fact that I don’t have to iron a single piece of clothing now.  I can structure the day the way  I want to.  It’s totally fine and acceptable to go to the gym at 3PM and start prepping dinner at noon.  Jackson and I have had lots of bonding time.  My portfolio is finally finished and I love the final product.  I finally have time to help Nick with his iPhone game graphics.  And I can focus on finding another job that is a much better fit for me.

While it’s stressful knowing that I won’t be contributing financially to our relationship come the next payday, Nick and I will get through this.  Honestly, if I didn’t have Nick by my side, cheering my on and reassuring me that it’s really for the better that I’m no longer employed there, I would not be doing so great right now.  (So thank you babe, for being such a huge support!)  Things will work themselves out.  They always do.  As for right now, while very scary, I’m trying to embrace the excitement of not knowing what will come next!


One response to “I’ve Got A Secret

  1. Pingback: Day 2 Of Official Unemployment: Taxes and Jogging Suits | The Urban Retrofit

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